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Ok so yeah i havnt updated here in a while mainly because live journal sucks..lol..and no one is on it anymore.
but anyway. lets see life is kind of shitty right now
brian broke up with me about 2 weeks ago. and it pretty much sucks. he was the only one i wanted to be with. i loved him so much and it just seemed like everything was ok yeah we fought but who cares everyone fights. i miss him so much and im just so confused. it seems like he just got scared of something but idk, i think he still cares about me and stuff. he just has me so confused.
Lets see all the bookah kids pretty much hate me...but ohh well i can do better than having them as friends right?
uhhhh christmas sucked pretty much i didnt get anything i wanted. but ohh well. my dad tired to get me stuff that he thought i needed with the little money he had, which is ok i loved everything i got from him.
Im about to be a aunt in about two weeks :) im excited to meet trevor (thats my nephew's name)
i miss my mom life crazy and i really wanted to go out to her grave and put like a grave blanket down or flowers or something.
i need to get my other tattoo;s
I feel like im a mistake.
everythings just gonig to wrong in my life
Im so depressed again,
this sucks.
SChools over in about 4 and 1/2 months :)
Thats all...
ohh and im talking with alex again, thats weird.
brian i miss you, and want you back in my life as the person i love. not just as a friend, but if i can only have a friendship with you then i'll try but i will always love you.
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[04 Jun 2008|01:57am] |
so lets see sence i never update anymore..haha :)
uhh my boyfriend brian is amazing!. im really happy :)
uhhhh schools almost out!
Graduation was this weekend. it was fun
my friends are amazing
met brians mom and her boyfriend last night. they seem really nice, i like him mom, shes nice and pretty :)
had no power yesterday or today, kind of sucked, my whole street didnt have it. its on now tho.
well im out
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so i havnt updated this in like 839695873 years.haha
this have been pretty good like no other.
i now have a job at value center market. its an ok job.
i like this boy named brian...hes pretty cool! :)
brad and i are no longer friends i think its for the best...
alex and i are no longer friends too, thats prolly for the best to.
but its ok
spring break was been amazing!!! :)
erin and jaime are more than amazing. i spend all my free time with them.
umm schools going ok.i guess i jsut cant wait til summer i have so many plans for this summer its not even funny..lol
uhh idk what else to write
im getting a tattoo in a few weeks. my second one. :)
yeah
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ok so last night was probebly alot of fun!
got ready went to the mall with amber. which was fun, shit i have to fill out my applications. then i took her home and cleaned my car out some..lol..its not as messy.
haha
then around 7 i met brad and natalie at jackies house. and jackie, jason, brad natalie and i all went to the butterfly played 3 games of pool then came back to my house and played pool and then john came over which was a little weird. but i guess were alright now. which is good cause hes a nice guy! then around 1120 john jackie and jason went home. so brad natalie and i hung in my basement and talked. it was nice. then we went to national..and i saw lets see.....john, derek, jennifer, dj(which was nice sence he leaves for iraq today) harmony and beth..haha cant take me to national at 1 in the morning..haha then i took natalie home and brad and i walked in meijer til about 230 am then i dropped him off and came home!..
it was a good night
OHH AND I MISS ERIN LIKE CRAzZZYYY :-/ ohh well she comes home thursday then ill have my best friend agian! :)
i hope shes having alot of fun tho!! :)
WOOHOO
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whats been going on in my life lately.
haha actually alot has!
hmmm this past few days have kind of been a little blank.
hmm
Thursday - was a very boring day,....pretty much did nothing at all.
thursday night was pretty weird tho, but yeah it dosnt even matter. haha.
Friday - Was probebly one of the best day.
lets see didnt go to school i was supposed to go to this thing at churchill but i wasnt really feeling all well so i skipped it. , then around 4 erin came and picked me up and i went with her to get her nails done, then we went to the mall and she bough some shirts and stuff, before we knew it, it was 630-7 and we left cause we had to get ready for the night.
so around 9 erin and jaime came and got me, and we were supposed to go pick bradley up but he was sick so he ended up not hanging out. so we went to national and ate, then headed over to the bowling ally to meet up with adryan, kevin, nadir, sara, and others. we chilled in the pool room and it was just alot of fun, and i played a game of pool against sara it was just alot of fun. then we left there around 11 and went to the hookah place at 19 and john R with adryan and kevin. they got in the car with us until the place cleared a table for us. haha we were just being dorks all night it was just alot of fun. then after the hookah place. erins car kind of died :-( it sucked so we called adryan and him and kevin came back and waited with us for AAA to get there to jump the truck. we were all just chillin in adryans car and it was just alot of fun!..there great guys and they are really funny when there together. i seriously couldnt stop laughing. then after we got all done there, erin, jaime and i went to national again. it was a great night!!!!
Saturday - hmmm woke up around 230. went for a drive to clear my head. came back here showered and got ready for the night, hung with jaime and erin all night, then jaime had to leave at 11. so erin and i just drove around, it was fun and i got to clear my head
tomorrow im just relaxing around my house. maybe chillin with someone who knows i never do..haha :)
and monday were moving most of the stuff out of our house. i cant believe this is actually for real. i dont want to move but theres nothing i can do. oh well. maybe its for the best
Well thats about it.
its going good for now :)
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this past weekend has been LONG!
friday- hung around with erin for the night, we drove around and just talked about everything, it was nice.
saturday - hung with jaime, we drove around and then went to national. then at like 1030 we picked amber up, and came back to chill at my house til jaime had to go home. so we took her home, and then amber and i played guitar hero 2 til 4 am!..it was amazing
sunday - did nothing, then erin calls and says adryan just invited us to his house for his super bowl party. so we went there. and on the way there they wanted us to stop and get wings at hooters. very weird going in there, we were the only girls other than the weitress's..haha then went to adryan's til about like midnight, then brad and i hung around with erin while she had to go clean the office she cleans. then the 3 of us hung out at my house til 3. then we took brad home, after doing a trip down memory lane. it was kind of weird.
ohh and erin stayed the night
monday - school was cancled! :)
so erin and i hung with jaime went to the mall and drove around. then after jaime went home, then erin and i went up to panera bread to eat and do homework. it was fun we were there for 2 hours. then brad went on a smoke break and i asked if he wanted to hang out after work with us. so he said yes, so around midnight we went and picked him up and we drove around and went and drove by brads old house, which was really weird..but he wanted to see it. then we went to dodge park which was even more weird for me. cause thats prolly one of the best places, and it just brought back this one memory which was one of the best days of my life. so then at 130ish we took brad home. and then erin dropped me off
that was about it..
Tuesday - school was cancled again :) hell yeahhh and i woke up and went for an hour drive. i needed to clear my head. it helped a little. and now im just sitting at home wondering if there will be school tomorrow. i hope not!
haha
well right now im just trying to decide if im doing the right thing or not. im not to sure.
things are going good for now tho, allthough sometimes i feel like i just want to cry....
i love all my friends, there the best!
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well lets see things have been alright. ive just been sitting around all week.
my friends are great.
my weekend has sucked a little but ohh well
im getting ready to go get a few job applications.
maybe ill actually get a job, not going to get my hopes up tho..haha
im back in school on monday, finally ive been so god damn bored just sitting at home doing nothing..ha
and i miss my friends.
yeah i have had alot of things on my mind lately and i just dont know what to do, i feel that i dont even know who i am anymore. and i dont like that. so im taking alot of time to just figure out who i am.
i dont like this very much
and im figuring out who are my real friends.
thats about it for now. ill update later on
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Things are going pretty good right now
im hanging out with bradley alot, and were talking alot, im so glad were friends agian. ive truely missed him
im hanging with karen and morgan alot more now :) which makes me happy
we have concert thursday and friday, im excited
christmas is in what 13 days? which will be nice, get to see most of my family
i cant wait for new years eve!..im so excited WOOHOO
schools out for a week, in a week from monday!
saw tyler today for the first time in months! so that was fun
driving from woodward, to 18 up to either rochester or van dyke with erin and tyler is fun!
i love my friends <3
Thats about it!
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well things are somewhat good
im talking to morgan again
and were hanging out
and im also
friends with karen again and were hanging out again
it makes me happy
ive missed them both :)
brad and i are working everything out
and im glad, cause im really glad that were frends
i dont know what i would do if i lost him completely.
hes a great guy and a wonderful friend
and i can tell him everything
school sucks likie hard core!
we have our choir concert next thursday and friday
and im pretty sure hartsoe's coming on friday :)
im excited for that
i really miss my mom, i wish she was here right now
i need motherly help
and no one to talk to, i cant really talk to my dad about stuff, thats just weird..ha
i dont sleep much anymore. it sucks. were trying to figure out why, i have doctors app.
and i may have to go to a sleeping test over night to find out if i have
a sleeping disorder
and i've realized that i miss summer so much
and everyone i hung with
mainly adam we got close over summer, he was one of my really good friends
and now its all kind of messed up.
thats about it!
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so last night was the monster truck show, which was fucking awesome! im so glad we went....i cant wait to see all the pictures i took. im deff posting them when christine sends them to me im so excited. it was a really fun night, i am deff. going to this again next year!. it was soo fun. and one of the trucks flipped over, and then there was this guy who on a 4 wheeler did a 70 foot jump and landed it great! but i guess he did a 60 foot jump at the earlier show and almost missed it and they showed us it on the tv, he seriously almost didnt make it. but it was just so amazing!
so then after we were leaving the palace and we got lost..haha what do you do when you have 4 girls in the car and have no idea where to go?..haha..it was funny
so then we went to national and we sat down. and there were these two older guys sitting next to us in the other booth, and one of them was passed out. and britt gave sarah a motrin for her headache, and the awake guy looked at us and was like i got some oxy cotton if you guys want some, and we were like umm no thanks. first off it was fucking creepy, and we wouldnt take drugs from a stanger and we wqouldnt even ever do oxy cotton. what the hell is wrong with people?..lol..well back to the story, so a few mins pass by maybe like 10 mins, and then the manager guy thing came over and was "is he ok, we cant have him sleeping here either wake him up or you guys need to leave" and the other guy was like " well i ordered this beer and havnt drank it can you take it off the bill. so the guy was nice and did it, and then he came back with a new bill and the awake guy said why didnt you take the coffee off too it hasnt been touched and the manager guy was like well im nto going to do that you guys just need to leave. and the awake guy was like well no if your not taking the coffee off the bill im going to sit here and drink it. and hes like no your not you need to leave either you leave or we call the cops. and the 4 of us are just sitting there listening we were really freaked out. so the awake guy tried to wake up the drunk passed out guy and couldnt get him up. so the manager guy had workeres come over and help them out to the cab. and we tapped the manager guy on the arm and was like we dont think hes just drunk cause they offered us oxy cotton and he kinda just laughed and was like ok. what kind of bullshit is that?..so we got back to britt's and told her parents ant tom called national and bitched at them it was really funny :)
^but first off why didnt they just fucking call the cops in the first place, usually when you work that late at night and you have some drugy, drunk ass passed out first thing you should do is call the fucking cops!. fucking dumb asses!
well that was my fun/interesting night!
:)
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things have been somewhat good!
i've been hanging out alot with my 2 favorite girls, brittnee and erin, i dont know what i would do with out them :) they are my best friends, everyday we pretty much hang out and if we dont we talk all day..haha :) i love them!
i've been driving alot lately, its nice being able to leave my house whenever the fuck i want to. i am liking this...haha other than my car needing a little bit of work, it runs nice, as soon as my dad has the money were going to put it in the shop to get what dosnt work on it working, and ill be getting my system, so its nice :)
we are selling the mustang!, so that will give us some money for a while
we are moving out by feb. its hard, but it will be a nice start over, and maybe it will do us some good, i will miss this house so much, but theres nothing i can do about it, im still going to come over to this area to chill in the park and visit my friends...so yeah..but i will miss this house so much.
im looking for a job, if you have any idea's in where i can find a job that you can be 16 to work at, let me know :)
umm this may be my last marking period at royal oak high school, im so sick of that school and all the drama is causes, so my dads thinking about letting me either switch to church hill or lamphere. so hopefully i will be goign to lamphere, i need a new start. and i can be with my cousins, and make new friends, it should be nice going someplace where no one knows me, or what im going through just to start over. yeah ill miss all my other friends that i see everyday, but its not like ill stop talking to them, ill talk to them and still hang out with them as well i promise!
things are changing, some for the worst and some for the good.
im changing and in a way, i like the way im changing! :) im more outgoing than i have ever been
i like it!
christmas will be here before you know it :) im excited, me brittnee and erin have just set a date before christmas to have dinner at andiamo's(sp) and were going to dress really nice and give each other our gifts, im looking foward to that :), i love those girls!..the whole break im sure we will spend almost every day together, and im prety sure were spending new years eve together which will be amazing! TRUST ME :)
like is getting a little harder right now, but im sure things will get turned good, i hope i dont think i can handle much more bad news.
hmm i think thats all i have to say right now, i cant think of anything else.
other than i really want to make a trip up to western to see jordan. but idk when that will happen
and i think im somewhat getting over him finally, yeah ill always love him. but right now were just friends and im really glad about that. He's and amazing guy, and actually hes kind of helping me move on or at least helping not let me feelings ahead of myself. u know. but i will always love him.
thats all :)
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well lets see,
everything has been going pretty good right now, my friends are great, school is alright, trying to find a job, driving is going good, i saw jordan last night and heather and ellen, it was nice :) ive missed them all.theres a few things i wish i could stuff about that arnt going so good right now, but hey theres nothing i can do abouyt that.
happy thanksgiving
ive been spending almost every night with erin and brittnee its been great!
christmas will be here around the corner, gotta start the shopping!
well thats about it for now! bye bye
<33
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well my birthday was amazing! i hung with christine, tom chris, my family, brad and erin!
went to school, left school with christine, went and got my license, went to my aunts, went and got my cousin chris and tom from lamphere then drove around for a bit, went back to my aunts for dinner and cake and ice cream, left there went to the mall with stine, tom chris and brad met us up there :)..it was nice to hang out with him again, im glad were friends. left the mall at around 9 dropped every one off at home, then came home called erin, went and picked her up, went to national got something to drink then drove around :)..it was a great day!!..
thank you to all my friends who hung out with me or said happy birthday to me <3 it was prolly the best birthday i have ver had! :)
yey! for sweet 16! FINALLY
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TOMORROW"S MY BIRTHDAY!!!
i get my license and car after school :)
wooohoo for turning 16 :)..
right?
haha
i love my friends <3
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I PASSED MY ROAD TEST THIS MORNING! :)
YESSSSS
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I REALLY WISH I COULD JUST GET AWAY FROM THIS CITY OR SOMETHING FOR A WHILE IM SO SICK OF SHIT..
this are good for the most part like my friends are amazing but eveything else is kinda going downhill :(
ohh well
4 fucking days til my birthday
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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well letss see
monday was devils day, didnt go to school, brittnee ended up calling me asking me if i wanted to go out that night, so we went and got some food at national and hung out with erin and jeff, it was a fun night and im really glad i got to see him. and tell him so much
that was the night dondero caught on fire!! SADDDD :-(
tuesday halloween, had no plans tried to make some did not good, got a call from brittnee, she was like wanna hang tonight and i was like sure, she came and got me we went to eat, then to her house to pass out candy, then came back to my house erin and jeff came over, another good night
wensday, late start didnt need to be at school til 925 :) got up went to ihop with lindsay
thursday - hung with erin jeff and tyler after school, it was fun
friday - school, home then brittnee came over, and then dustin came over and we met at national came home britt left, then me and dustin went and played some pool in my basement, fun night
saturday hmm woke up chilled until i went to my aunt for dinner, then came home lindsay came over then erin and jeff came over and we all just chilled and went to national.
sunday - got up lindsay went home hung with erin went to national then ended up goin to aurburn hills to hang with jeff then came back to royal oak.
I APPLIED AT NATIONAL TODAY IM HOPING I GET A JOB THERE!!!!
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN & DAYS, A WEEK FROM TUESDAY AND I ALSO GET MY LICENSE!!!!!!!!!!
WOOHOO
and i just burnt my finger and it hurtssssssssss
things are greattt
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS <3
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ok so yesterday, lets see it was monday and i stayed home from school cause i got no sleep that night. i cant really remember what all went down i know i went out with brittnee and erin and erin's boyfriend jeff who may i add is really awsome and a nice guy! :), then came home and talking to brad and he ended up coming over at 1230am til late..haha..and we just talked about everything. it really answered alot of questiions that i had. , it was prolly the perfect night ever..so i didnt sleep at all that night, he left and i went to school today, haha i was soo tired, then after school today well was halloween so i came home slept for maybe 10 mins. and got a call from brittnee and making plans with me, so she came and got me we went and ate at national like always, then went to her house and gave candy to the cute little trick or treaters, then left to take her bro someplace and came back to my house and erin and jeff came over and we all just kinda chilled it was fun :)
these past two days have been amazing!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
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so my weekend was crazy,
friday - well me and brittnee got into an accident right infront of my street, the fucker hit us from behind but no damadge on her car just on his asshole!..that pissed us off so much, like we were in the turn lane with the signal on and fucking he re-ended us, it was his fault and like i got in the car after and i was like brittnee, idk how fucking ohio drivers drive( cause his license plate was ohio) but usually when you see fucking brake lights you stop, then after erin, dustin tyler and devon came over, ended up being a goodnight
sat - hung with brittnee the whole day that was fun, went to the mall saw some people, drove around, hung with beth for a bit, went to national 3 times cause we were bored and wanted to be somewhere, so we went there and sat and drank some water, and coffee, then back to my house til 1130ish
sun - hung around my house all day felt like shit..yeah
weekend was fun hope yours was too
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Well lets see this past 3 days + this weekend! :)
wensday- went to school came home for ready, brittnee came and got me, we went and got my nails done, then we went to the powder puff game which junior and seniors tied 20-20..it was stupid! but the game was neat!..haha..then after that, brittnee, erin, dustin, tyler and this other dude and i all went to national for some dinner!..it was good then i came home.!
thursday- school came home, christine came over we hung out then erin came and picked us up, and we went downtown and ran into pat at barns & noble then we went and drove up and down woodward for like 45 mins..haha that was fun then dropped stine off at her house and went and picked tyler up and drove woodward more til 16 then took 16 to rochester then she dropped me off and i was up til 2.
today ( friday)- no school woke up at 2pm, chilled for a while, then showered, then just chilled around at 7 brittnee is coming over, then 830 erins coming over, then 9 dustin and tyler are coming over, and we might go get food at national again..haha and erins staying the night to
saturday - bowling then i have no idea
sunday- hanging out with natalie!!!
great weekend!
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